Just came back from a week without coverage. Brian at dVerse suggest poetry about monsters. What better way to start. Now without my monsters I expect them back.
My monsters come to me at night
repeating what I’ve said and done.
They look like friends but leer and sing
offensive things. Breaking down
security, the walls I’ve built.
Entangled in my bed sheets
I twist and turn, with pounding heart.
Insomnia is company.
Alone with monsters that I hide inside.
My monsters come to me at night
repeating what I’ve said and done.
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April 14, 2013
Björn Rudbergs writings 
I wonder what those monsters have to say that you hide inside; perhaps you are being much too hard on yourself 😉
The monsters tells me worse possible interpretation of everything.
I used to experience this after intense and/or long interactions. I’d wake with anxiety over what I’d said and how it might have been taken. It rarely happens now – I just trust my heart to be full of good intentions, regardless of how people may interpret me.
I know it really, and as you say it was more frequent when you are younger.
Sorry, I seem to have double tapped – please delete my repetition!
Repetition deleted 🙂
Oh yes, the 2am monsters can be the worst.
Oh, sometimes this monster enters into my soul too–and I can feel it gestating inside me. And then..
“Insomnia is company.
Alone with monsters that I hide inside.” 😀
Very well penned! Loved this!
Manson pic to accompany tonights well woven words BR? 1st glance that is who I see…and he was a monster.
It’s myself on that picture 😉 but I’m not that bad really
Very appropriate Bjorn, so many of us hide them by day but at night there is no escape.
when we are at rest, they come…sound like guilt as well twisting what we say and do and using it to hurt us….having that element of truth makes them all the more real eh?
insomnia and monsters inside..not a good combo at all..those inner voices get way too loud then…
Our inner most thoughts are good breeding grounds for monsters.
Welcome back. 🙂
I really enjoyed the depth of this one our own thoughts can sometimes be monsters.
I was wondering where you were. Monsters, huh? 🙂
I have had vacation outside any coverage….. or electricity..
Those types I like.
Everyone has these monsters at one time or another, Bjorn. I hope they didn’t follow you on vacation. I’m sure you had fun but nice to have you back. BTW, “and” in the second line. 🙂
janet
Isn’t it true that monsters always come accusing, justifying their terror upon our guilt. Foregiveness is the remedy, I think. Nice write.
Insomnia – that voice inside is terrifying indeed ~ Good work, specially on the weaving of the first and last verses ~
so true… and important to be at peace… really felt the struggle in your lines
Yes, I know exactly what you mean….I know those monsters too.